ficlet: loving you (is a losing game)- clark/oliver

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Title: loving you (is a losing game)
Fandom: Smallville
Pairing/Character(s): Clark/Oliver
Rating: G
Disclaimer: don't own anything; all characters belong to CW/DC Comics
Word Count: 495
Spoilers/Warnings: none/none
Summary: post ‘Requiem”; Oliver should know better than to do this, especially with his big secret hanging over both their heads, but he can’t say no to Clark.
Author's Notes: For my theechochorus table, prompt: secrets and lies

Oliver had always wondered how it’d feel crossing the line, the one where he intentionally ended someone’s life. He could’ve anticipated the nightmares, the regret, even the all-consuming guilt.

But the worst part was he was such a poor actor that Clark had realized something was wrong and seemed to actively be trying to cheer him up, ignoring his own heartbreak to find time to check up on Oliver, all the while making Oliver feel like the worst person in the world.

He should’ve pushed Clark away, but he liked having Clark around. He liked Clark too much, in ways he never let himself examine in the past. It’d end terribly, because if Clark found out (and he would find out, a tiny voice in his head reminded him), he’d never forgive him.

Yet when Clark showed up to his office late that evening, Oliver welcomed him in as always.

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